I feel messed up

Agnes Laurens
2 min readFeb 12, 2019

Well, let’s say that I am a very chaotic person. I start a project, but I don’t finish it. Then I start something else. And then the first project stays where I left it and I end it later plus I leave the second project where I left it at that time at some moment. This upsets me too much! First of all, I know I am really chaotic. Second of all, I know I have to do something about it, but I also know there is isn’t that much to do about it. And yes, there are many tools (which I tried most of them) to use and get more organised. What else should I do?

This also gives me a messed up feeling. It feels like I have a big rock in my head with too many ideas I think I never will achieve. But deep inside, I also know that I can do it with the right tools. Those tools I never have found yet, but I will in the future. I know that. It’s the focus I need. No distraction I always had. Maybe this is the way I always like but now frustrates me. However, the chaos is my had, too much to do, the children are asking me things I have to answer, my voluntary work… Sometimes it is too much, but I can’t say goodbye to something or a project I truly love. Should I really…

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Agnes Laurens

Agnes Laurens is a writer. She writes for the local newspaper. Agnes lives in The Netherlands, with three daughters. https://linktr.ee/alaurens