People are mean, people give mean comments about your clothes, your hair or (other) looks, your hobbies or when your you’re a celebrity or when someone is online too much. That hurts a lot. Some people have been through a lot because others are doing negative to them.
Therapy helped me understand a few things.
At the moment I’m in therapy. Let’s say that first. It took me a while to go to a therapist, because I was afraid of…
How negativity influences your brain
Sometimes I have negative thoughts. And this is because of my past.
People hurt me a lot in my past. In primary school and secondary school. They told me I had louse. I know it wasn’t true (my mother looked at my hair every month and there was nothing). So, they put a “fake siphon” in their hands and “spraying” in the air when I passed by. I didn’t say anything, because I thought it’ll go over, but my classmates didn’t listen when I asked to stop doing what they did. And continued during my primary school years.
I feel and I can’t explain
It’s hard to explain that I feel deep, but that I can’t explain the feeling I feel right now. It’s hard. Hard to…
Fighting my place into the world
The world is a big space. We live together with millions of people on this planet. A lot of people we don’t know, some…
During my secondary schoolyears classmates didn’t know anything about classical music (I play the violin) and at that time I wanted to go to the conservatory, but I wasn’t ready yet at that time I let go my dream). The Dutch word for the conservatory is ‘conservatorium’. They said I’m going to the crematory and I’ll be dead soon. The Dutch word for crematory is ‘crematorium’. It looks familiar with these two words. They bullied me…